Ok ok I know my birthday is months away but if there is a kind soul out there or you’re stumped as to what to get me for my birthday … well, I’m about to make your lives easier!
1. Nine Parts of Desire: The Hidden World of Islamic Women by Geraldine Brooks.
2. Maniac Eyeball: The Unspeakable Confessions of Salvador
3. Beyond Portraiture: Creative People Photography
I might just end up buying them myself. But not right now, because I’m broke. Must.Look.for.Job!
You don’t wanna know what my summer reads are. They’re all for the dissertation! =|
So I went to a couple of gigs, so I don’t walk around with muka masam, so I don’t have STRESSED engraved on my forehead, so I appeared relaxed and chilled and ZEN …
There are things you see and you don’t. Mana kau nampak kan aku belajar. Mana kau tau kan malam-malam aku di Library. Mana kau tau kan kadang-kadang ku inda tidur. Mana jua kau tau kalau ku damam.
Just because I look like I don’t have any care in the world doesn’t mean I have it easy. Aku pun ada exam, assignments, dissertations kan dibuat .. I also have my own issues, problems, dilemmas or whatever fuck you call it. We just have our own coping mechanisms.
I’m just efficient
And people tend to avoid orang yang suka complain and moody. Just saying~
Hohoho boy am I glad I woke up and took an early shower today because I found out that when Xav wanted to mandi at 9am, he told me there was no hot water!
And there still isn’t any.
I hope they fix it by tonight or tomorrow morning because I have a lunch meeting and I WANT TO MANDI BEFORE THAT!
I’ve been saying I want to go home a lot lately. Maybe I am homesick. Or just sick of everything here.
Truth is I am just scared. I’m nearing the end of my PG course and I don’t know what my plans are after that. It’s the not knowing part that scares the shit out of me. I hate myself for being in this situation again. Three years ago, I was scared because I didn’t think I was ready to get a job yet. Selfish. This time around I am ready (I think) it’s just that the job market just increased its population.
I am beyond HORRIFIED to discover that I have been visiting FACEBOOK for up to a total of 29,975 times before today. I don’t know for over a period of how long. Probably ever since I’ve been using Firefox .. but still. 29,975 times?!?! That’s … A LOT! =|